today.

...fiveyearsagoandinadifferentlifetimeshedroppedmyheartandshattereditinahundredmillionpiecessomanyitcouldneverbeputbacktogetheragainandnothingfitrightnothingremaineditwasinfactthedeathofmeandwhenthenightdarkgrewslowlyintoanewdayonlythencouldiseeallthosebrokenpartsofmesobrilliantlyfracturedservedwhollytoreflectthelight.

and so, it all comes 'round to this.

I saw grief drinking a cup of sorrow,
and I called out,
     It tastes sweet, does it not?
You have caught me

     grief answered,
and you have ruined my business.
How can i sell sorrow
     when you know it is a blessing?

Love lit a fire in my chest,
and anything that was not love left

- rumi

from Rumi: the Big Red Book, translations by
Coleman Barks